I think I'm ready for some changes in my life. A different point of view, a different outlook. I've always been closed off, not trusting, not willing to let anyone in.

You only see what I let you see. . .

I'm not a vulnerable person. I don't let people see me cry. I don't let people see me upset. I'm a staunch believer that weakness should be dealt with in private. If I'm upset, I keep it in. If I'm hurt, I keep it in. I guess there's this big thing about control with me. I need to be in control of my own emotions, of my own actions.

But I think it's time for a change. I think that my walls and bricks and moats and any general term for keeping people away? Well, they need to be let down. Maybe it's okay to trust someone, maybe it's okay to give someone that power to hurt you. Maybe it'll make me a different, better person.

It's gonna be a hard road. But I'm willing to see where this road takes me.